奥兰多orlando (英文版)作者:弗吉尼亚·伍尔芙-第7章

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　says　that　nothing　thicker　than　a　knife’s　blade　separates　happiness　from　melancholy；　and　he　goes　on　to　opine　that　one　is　twin　fellow　to　the　other；　and　draws　from　this　the　conclusion　that　all　extremes　of　feeling　are　allied　to　madness；　and　so　bids　us　take　refuge　in　the　true　Church　（in　his　view　the　Anabaptist）；　which　is　the　only　harbour；　port；　anchorage；　etc。；　he　said；　for　those　tossed　on　this　sea。

‘All　ends　in　death；’　Orlando　would　say；　sitting　upright；　his　face　clouded　with　gloom。　（For　that　was　the　way　his　mind　worked　now；　in　violent　see–saws　from　life　to　death；　stopping　at　nothing　in　between；　so　that　the　biographer　must　not　stop　either；　but　must　fly　as　fast　as　he　can　and　so　keep　pace　with　the　unthinking　passionate　foolish　actions　and　sudden　extravagant　words　in　which；　it　is　impossible　to　deny；　Orlando　at　this　time　of　his　life　indulged。）

‘All　ends　in　death；’　Orlando　would　say；　sitting　upright　on　the　ice。　But　Sasha　who　after　all　had　no　English　blood　in　her　but　was　from　Russia　where　the　sunsets　are　longer；　the　dawns　less　sudden；　and　sentences　often　left　unfinished　from　doubt　as　to　how　best　to　end　them—Sasha　stared　at　him；　perhaps　sneered　at　him；　for　he　must　have　seemed　a　child　to　her；　and　said　nothing。　But　at　length　the　ice　grew　cold　beneath　them；　which　she　disliked；　so　pulling　him　to　his　feet　again；　she　talked　so　enchantingly；　so　wittily；　so　wisely　（but　unfortunately　always　in　French；　which　notoriously　loses　its　flavour　in　translation）　that　he　forgot　the　frozen　waters　or　night　ing　or　the　old　woman　or　whatever　it　was；　and　would　try　to　tell　her—plunging　and　splashing　among　a　thousand　images　which　had　gone　as　stale　as　the　women　who　inspired　them—what　she　was　like。　Snow；　cream；　marble；　cherries；　alabaster；　golden　wire？　None　of　these。　She　was　like　a　fox；　or　an　olive　tree；　like　the　waves　of　the　sea　when　you　look　down　upon　them　from　a　height；　like　an　emerald；　like　the　sun　on　a　green　hill　which　is　yet　clouded—like　nothing　he　had　seen　or　known　in　England。　Ransack　the　language　as　he　might；　words　failed　him。　He　wanted　another　landscape；　and　another　tongue。　English　was　too　frank；　too　candid；　too　honeyed　a　speech　for　Sasha。　For　in　all　she　said；　however　open　she　seemed　and　voluptuous；　there　was　something　hidden；　in　all　she　did；　however　daring；　there　was　something　concealed。　So　the　green　flame　seems　hidden　in　the　emerald；　or　the　sun　prisoned　in　a　hill。　The　clearness　was　only　outward；　within　was　a　wandering　flame。　It　came；　it　went；　she　never　shone　with　the　steady　beam　of　an　Englishwoman—here；　however；　remembering　the　Lady　Margaret　and　her　petticoats；　Orlando　ran　wild　in　his　transports　and　swept　her　over　the　ice；　faster；　faster；　vowing　that　he　would　chase　the　flame；　dive　for　the　gem；　and　so　on　and　so　on；　the　words　ing　on　the　pants　of　his　breath　with　the　passion　of　a　poet　whose　poetry　is　half　pressed　out　of　him　by　pain。

But　Sasha　was　silent。　When　Orlando　had　done　telling　her　that　she　was　a　fox；　an　olive　tree；　or　a　green　hill–top；　and　had　given　her　the　whole　history　of　his　family；　how　their　house　was　one　of　the　most　ancient　in　Britain；　how　they　had　e　from　Rome　with　the　Caesars　and　had　the　right　to　walk　down　the　Corso　（which　is　the　chief　street　in　Rome）　under　a　tasselled　palanquin；　which　he　said　is　a　privilege　reserved　only　for　those　of　imperial　blood　（for　there　was　an　orgulous　credulity　about　him　which　was　pleasant　enough）；　he　would　pause　and　ask　her；　Where　was　her　own　house？　What　was　her　father？　Had　she　brothers？　Why　was　she　here　alone　with　her　uncle？　Then；　somehow；　though　she　answered　readily　enough；　an　awkwardness　would　e　between　them。　He　suspected　at　first　that　her　rank　was　not　as　high　as　she　would　like；　or　that　she　was　ashamed　of　the　savage　ways　of　her　people；　for　he　had　heard　that　the　women　in　Muscovy　wear　beards　and　the　men　are　covered　with　fur　from　the　waist　down；　that　both　sexes　are　smeared　with　tallow　to　keep　the　cold　out；　tear　meat　with　their　fingers　and　live　in　huts　where　an　English　noble　would　scruple　to　keep　his　cattle；　so　that　he　forebore　to　press　her。　But　on　reflection；　he　concluded　that　her　silence　could　not　be　for　that　reason；　she　herself　was　entirely　free　from　hair　on　the　chin；　she　dressed　in　velvet　and　pearls；　and　her　manners　were　certainly　not　those　of　a　woman　bred　in　a　cattle–shed。

What；　then；　did　she　hide　from　him？　The　doubt　underlying　the　tremendous　force　of　his　feelings　was　like　a　quicksand　beneath　a　monument　which　shifts　suddenly　and　makes　the　whole　pile　shake。　The　agony　would　seize　him　suddenly。　Then　he　would　blaze　out　in　such　wrath　that　she　did　not　know　how　to　quiet　him。　Perhaps　she　did　not　want　to　quiet　him；　perhaps　his　rages　pleased　her　and　she　provoked　them　purposely—such　is　the　curious　obliquity　of　the　Muscovitish　temperament。

To　continue　the　story—skating　farther　than　their　wont　that　day　they　reached　that　part　of　the　river　where　the　ships　had　anchored　and　been　frozen　in　midstream。　Among　them　was　the　ship　of　the　Muscovite　Embassy　flying　its　double–headed　black　eagle　from　the　main　mast；　which　was　hung　with　many–coloured　icicles　several　yards　in　length。　Sasha　had　left　some　of　her　clothing　on　board；　and　supposing　the　ship　to　be　empty　they　climbed　on　deck　and　went　in　search　of　it。　Remembering　certain　passages　in　his　own　past；　Orlando　would　not　have　marvelled　had　some　good　citizens　sought　this　refuge　before　them；　and　so　it　turned　out。　They　had　not　ventured　far　when　a　fine　young　man　started　up　from　some　business　of　his　own　behind　a　coil　of　rope　and　saying；　apparently；　for　he　spoke　Russian；　that　he　was　one　of　the　crew　and　would　help　the　Princess　to　find　what　she　wanted；　lit　a　lump　of　candle　and　disappeared　with　her　into　the　lower　parts　of　the　ship。

Time　went　by；　and　Orlando；　wrapped　in　his　own　dreams；　thought　only　of　the　pleasures　of　life；　of　his　jewel；　of　her　rarity；　of　means　for　making　her　irrevocably　and　indissolubly　his　own。　Obstacles　there　were　and　hardships　to　overe。　She　was　determined　to　live　in　Russia；　where　there　were　frozen　rivers　and　wild　horses　and　men；　she　said；　who　gashed　each　other’s　throats　open。　It　is　true　that　a　landscape　of　pine　and　snow；　habits　of　lust　and　slaughter；　did　not　entice　him。　Nor　was　he　anxious　to　cease　his　pleasant　country　ways　of　sport　and　tree–planting；　relinquish　his　office；　ruin　his　career；　shoot　the　reindeer　instead　of　the　rabbit；　drink　vodka　instead　of　canary；　and　slip　a　knife　up　his　sleeve—for　what　purpose；　he　knew　not。　Still；　all　this　and　more　than　all　this　he　would　do　for　her　sake。　As　for　his　marriage　to　the　Lady　Margaret；　fixed　though　it　was　for　this　day　sennight；　the　thing　was　so　palpably　absurd　that　he　scarcely　gave　it　a　thought。　Her　kinsmen　would　abuse　him　for　deserting　a　great　lady；　his　friends　would　deride　him　for　ruining　the　finest　career　in　the　world　for　a　Cossack　woman　and　a　waste　of　snow—it　weighed　not　a　straw　in　the　balance　pared　with　Sasha　herself。　On　the　first　dark　night　they　would　fly。　They　would　take　ship　to　Russia。　So　he　pondered；　so　he　plotted　as　he　walked　up　and　down　the　deck。

He　was　recalled；　turning　westward；　by　the　sight　of　the　sun；　slung　like　an　orange　on　the　cross　of　St　Paul’s。　It　was　blood–red　and　sinking　rapidly。　It　must　be　almost　evening。　Sasha　had　been　gone　this　hour　and　more。　Seized　instantly　with　those　dark　forebodings　which　shadowed　even　his　most　confident　thoughts　of　her；　he　plunged　the　way　he　had　seen　them　go　into　the　hold　of　the　ship；　and；　after　stumbling　among　chests　and　barrels　in　the　darkness；　was　made　aware　by　a　faint　glimmer　in　a　corner　that　they　were　seated　there。　For　one　second；　he　had　a　vision　of　them；　saw　Sasha　seated　on　the　sailor’s　knee；　saw　her　bend　towards　him；　saw　them　embrace　before　the　light　was　blotted　out　in　a　red　cloud　by　his　rage。　He　blazed　into　such　a　howl　of　anguish　that　the　whole　ship　echoed。　Sasha　threw　herself　between　them；　or　the　sailor　would　have　been　stifled　before　he　could　draw　his　cutlass。　Then　a　deadly　sickness　came　over　Orlando；　and　they　had　to　lay　him　on　the　floor　and　give　him　brandy　to　drink　before　he　revived。　And　then；　when　he　had　recovered　and　was　sat　upon　a　heap　of　sacking　on　deck；　Sasha　hung　over　him；　passing　before　his　dizzied　eyes　softly；　sinuously；　like　the　fox　that　had　bit　him；　now　cajoling；　now　denouncing；　so　that　he　came　to　doubt　what　he　had　seen。　Had　not　the　candle　gutt